hey so how are you?

"Hello,
How have you been? Good.
Oh me, I've been here and there. My wife, shes great, she actually got a promotion.
Music? no i don't do that anymore, that's something i did when i was a child.
Veganism? no how foolish of me, animals don't feel anything, how could i be so naive
God? yes, I'm a christian now, I've found my way with Christ, and i feel its the only way.
Straight Edge? No, i quit that, i enjoy a drink here and there, and some meth....it helps me unwind, but I've also became what i hate, i beat my children and neglect them....
I Love my life now.. This is all ways what i wanted....."

i never want to be this person, and it seem like everyone wants me to be this person.
i will never love
i will never give up my love for music
i will live compassionately for mother earths animals
i will not pray to a false idol, who corrupts and rapes the beautiful people of this earth
i will never fall victim to the drugs of youth and adults, and become what Ive hated all my life.

i will never be like him, i will never neglect those who love. i will all ways care, i will all ways love, i will all ways understand.

ill never fucking be like him
ill be a better man.

Fuck you C.P.M

With all the hate and resentment in my hollow body
your son
-C.M.M

"title"

Retracing my foot steps through this hollow life
I've yet to come to terms with my regrets
and understanding my greatest failures have been the fault of only my own
in this constant quarrel of love and life
this temperamental faith is wallowing away

Through my constant trial and error
i find a place to call my own
a place where i can rest,breathe and live in solitude
were i find my place, among the weak, the barren and apathetic
this place is dark, but yea through this thick black haze
i find my ever-guiding light
finally...finally I've found my place..among the shadows