Beauty

how beautifull it is
how fond the lie
how deep the emotion

truly seeking through acts of kidness
blinded by the sunburst of beauty
in the deepest depths i scrape nothing
to find that mild shard of self worth
comes up as a terrible stench of mediocrity

relieve my hate
retreat my love
this time i hope i get it right
this time will be not be like last time

everything has changed
the world constatnly swirling around me
yet i stand idle
yet i stand alone with the thoughts of what could have been....

Loathe

hopeless intent
inner turmoil and constant discontent
i once saw a light
just as fast as to be seen
it faded like the dawn

as the darkness creeps into me
so does my shallow false hope
constantly dragging my aspirations on the ground
to find my aspirations arent worth the soil they are dragged on

once i find the light
my fire
i will burn once again
until that day
i will stay the cold,dry ash that i am, and allways will be